monday did a lot of thinking today..just sat on my bed with my laptop blaring away..realised the similarities of post chin-cedge and anne-richuselessbum..i've come to realised tt i almost alwaz end up someone's rebound and am glad tt i manged to stay away..i dun suppose rebound partners actually last tt long anyway...but i'll alwaz kick myself for the one missed opportunity tt i had back in '99 with chin...will alwaz rem wad chris said..smthng tt i will nt be postin..as far as relationships are concerned..i thnk i'll isolate myself for the time being..will want to focus on poly..and maybe..jus maybe..someone in poly will come along and help me with this emotional burden.. -shrugs- but i guess what is done is done..not tt anyone can turn back the time...how wonderful can life get? xbox n ps2 to entertain myself with..bum ard at home..sounds nice? hell no.. =( smtimes i juz wonder how jo can hang on for so long for one guy...for the immediate future..i thnk i'll jus bt happy for my friends who are attached..lucks to you all.. =/ and i wonder why i'm so erm..well..willing if tts the word to use..alwaz givin way to people (read.lyk paul cheong.nt tt it matters anymore but its jz an example)..yeah.friends come and go..i agree..but i thnk it's fair to try to make memories as happy as possible before they vanish...i dare say coz over the years i've lost contact with quite a few of them..i may regret it but i guess there's not much i can do... =(