tuesday ok.either i fucked up big time or i fucked up small time.if there's even such a thing as "small time".either way i'm messed up.gave geraldine something.don't ask cause i'm not telling.problem is.i didnt give it myself.got wilson to give it.and not to mention any names.sadly (or whatever).she said she'd take it once he told her who was giving her the nicely wrapped gift.and so he told her.after which i've not received any sms or whatsoever from her.so that kinda occupied my mind the whole day.thinking about all the permutations that could happen.unfortunately.not a single one seems to be favourable.so i'm kinda bracing myself emotionally.guess that's just about what i can do.got my 2nd b'day present.courtesy of brian and marilyn.vertical horizon's go.went to gym with brian at about 6.15.did loads of stuff till about 8.so yeah.i kinda just got home.am tired.worried.and on the verge of breakdown.perhaps its cause i'm listenin to "angel without wings"..has that kinda effect on a person who's feelin down.-sigh-