retrospect.

sunday morning the past few months i've seen some of my friends commission as officers. each and everytime i congratulate them, i look back to last year when things could have been so different. i look back at how that bar was so near, yet remains impossible to attain. i make do with these stripes but only as a consolation.

everytime i congratulate them, i feel a tinge of bitterness. bitter that circumstances prevented a dream from coming true, bitter that so many things could have been a reality for me yet they are all past me now.

retrospect.

at some point in our lives we stop and look back at what we missed out in life. the many "what ifs" in our lives. very rarely we give thanks for what we have and what the future holds for us. as another batch of friends commission, i wish them well and good luck.

as for the rest of us. sergeants or otherwise. well, being a commander of sorts is better than nothing. i see my rank as a consolation, others will see it as a privilege or a right. whatever it is, we still got our jobs to do and fulfill. responsibilities to uphold and more things to look forward to in life than officership.

little shout outs and a few congratulations:

shuren - having fun dy s1 sir? haha. see you in december. save up for soccer!
alexander - dy s2! i'll see you soon over here when you're doing bioc. till then!
sangar - aye bro. staff officer or tekong? haha. whatever it is, all the best man. congrats and good luck whichever path you take.
eugene - who would have imagined? from the slacker in egarage to an artillery officer. haha! congrats!