...and counting.

sunday morning nothing really much going on. did a shit load of well.. shit in camp the past few days. was out to tanjong gul camp (somewhere in tuas. don't ask me where) to help bring back the op boxes used during in-camp training. and then there's the paperwork for wallaby. been thinking about uni studies the past few days. got a few options in mind but i'll need to think it over and discuss it with my parents and see what gives. unsw is almost a given i think (or hope?). i figure i've got 1 year plus to think about it? so yeah. time..

you know sometimes, you just wonder to yourself, why go through all the trouble to maintain a relationship. go through all the arguments, the fights, spending time and effort to make things work. given that there's always the happy and memorable things to cherish. but when it ends.. if it ends. you think to yourself: was it worth it? was it worth every single tear, cent and second?

perhaps the one thing many of us fail to do is find the balance between giving and taking. it's all about give and take. we've all heard that so many times but do we believe in it? beats me if i do myself. but finally in the end, at least for a person like me, i'm on the giving side more often than the taking one so when it all ends, the answer to the questions above would always be a resounding no..

time. time supposedly heals everything. but things live in our memories and we'll never forget them. we eventually block them off but certain things we see, do, listen, watch, even eat and drink will trigger those memories and we'll be back to where we were, at least for a while.

i don't know why i'm blogging about this. so forgive the rant and enjoy the holidays. hah!

never lie, steal, cheat or drink
if you must steal, steal away from bad company
if you must lie, lie in arms of the one you love
if you must cheat, cheat death
and if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away