reflections.
sunday morning just got home from watching Casino Royale with shank and shuren. pretty good show but it was a little bit too draggy. but all in all it was a good show. so anways.. saturday revolved around floorball. had a friendly against keith's church and sgs. scored 3 but it was nothing fantastic. didn't feel the drive to play. wonder why. went on to town with edmund to meet emily louise and yati for dinner and just to hang out in town.. so that pretty much sums up saturday. got a long week ahead. long in the sense that on tuesday and wednesday, i'll be going to changi airport at 4 bloody am to send off the Ex Wallaby people from 3SIB. sigh.
been thinking lately. am i glad that she's single again or do i feel sorry and upset because she's obviously upset? i really wonder. then again. from what i gather from her msn nick. it seems as if she's alright. well. guess i'll never know. what i do know is however, the fact that i miss her. i miss her soft touches, having her in my arms, her lying in on my lap while we were at esplanade, her sleeping in my arms in the bus or in school, watching the stars with her. the smile that makes me forget just about everything, her assurances and confidence in me. the littlest of things, even the smell of her hair. i don't think i'll ever regret spending a shit-load of money taking cab home after sending her home numerous times. i'll never regret waiting after floorball training for her to finish dance at 11pm. i regret however, letting her slip from my grasp. i've never understood why things ended the way it did and how it even came to that. was it my fault? perhaps. was it hers? maybe. i don't know. different people have told me different things and i figure sometimes it's best not to know the answer. somethings are better left unknown. the fact of the matter is that i still miss her.. to be fair, she's probably one of two girls that i've truly liked (or loved?), the other being marilyn.. i would give just about anything to have a 2nd shot but somethings are beyond my control and so nature takes its course. God's plans perhaps.. right now i'm just thankful for everything i've got. guess like the saying goes, you never miss what you've got till you lose them. painful lessons that i've learnt.
been thinking lately. am i glad that she's single again or do i feel sorry and upset because she's obviously upset? i really wonder. then again. from what i gather from her msn nick. it seems as if she's alright. well. guess i'll never know. what i do know is however, the fact that i miss her. i miss her soft touches, having her in my arms, her lying in on my lap while we were at esplanade, her sleeping in my arms in the bus or in school, watching the stars with her. the smile that makes me forget just about everything, her assurances and confidence in me. the littlest of things, even the smell of her hair. i don't think i'll ever regret spending a shit-load of money taking cab home after sending her home numerous times. i'll never regret waiting after floorball training for her to finish dance at 11pm. i regret however, letting her slip from my grasp. i've never understood why things ended the way it did and how it even came to that. was it my fault? perhaps. was it hers? maybe. i don't know. different people have told me different things and i figure sometimes it's best not to know the answer. somethings are better left unknown. the fact of the matter is that i still miss her.. to be fair, she's probably one of two girls that i've truly liked (or loved?), the other being marilyn.. i would give just about anything to have a 2nd shot but somethings are beyond my control and so nature takes its course. God's plans perhaps.. right now i'm just thankful for everything i've got. guess like the saying goes, you never miss what you've got till you lose them. painful lessons that i've learnt.
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