steadfast and resolute.

saturday morning everyone has only so much tolerance for emotional, physical and psychological stress. it's been a rough couple of weeks where there has been much to contemplate about and even question yet the end result is, i have to keep the faith, be steadfast and resolute in my beliefs.

setback after setback has resulted in me being battered inside, to the extent that i contemplated resorting to alcohol to "ease the stress" and what not but i'm glad i never gave in to that.

i firmly believe that life comes full circle. it's hard to fathom that after giving so much, i've received only so little. yes, one may go on and talk about the riches in heaven, the riches of the soul and the riches of the mind but sometimes these are not i want or need at this present moment right?

confusion, to a certain degree is starting to set in and i really am lost as to what to do. things were never so complicated and hectic all the same time. it's weird. praying every night seems to make things better but only for the night, every morning i wake up to the same troubles in my head and the same sinking feeling. just wish things get better soon because i'm about to reach breaking point. all these before school even starts.