calm.

tuesday afternoon that term is all too foreign right now. for a week off, there's a lot of programming to be done. too many expectations to be met but i think it's all cool. i'll get it done by next week.

antibiotics galore again. don't ask. coughing fit has reduced a lot but still hurts like hell when i cough. head spins too after a long while. so now i've got this whole week to recover if not i'll be in a whole lot of trouble next week when work picks up due to the monthly peak (work load is hell at the beginning and end of each month).

wrote a long email just now, sort of a rant/advise-needed kind of mail. i surprised myself by sending it to marilyn and sarah. well, sending it to sarah's alright since she pretty much knows what i was talking about. but marilyn. guess it's because it's been a long while since we spoke about "deeper" things. so yeah.

oh well, things fall into place one way or another. question i ask myself is, am i the kind who makes things happen and let things fall into place? or do i wait for things to fall into place before making things happen? i wonder.