Dashboard Confessional - Screaming Infidelities

I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak,
And this bottle of beast
Is taking me home

[1.]
I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
But you're not alone, and you're not discreet
Make sure I know who's taking you home.

I'm reading your note over again
There's not a word that I comprehend,
Except when you signed it
"I will love you always and forever."

[2.]
Well As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder
How you're making out
But as for me, I wish that I was anywhere with anyone
Making out.

I'm missing your laugh
How did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you 're pretending.

[1.]
I am alone
In my defeat I wish I knew you were safely at home

I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have speak, and
This bottle of beast is taking me home.

[2.]

Your hair, it's everywhere.
Screaming infidelities
And taking its wear.
[Repeat Four times]

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great song.especially since i've got it in "live" version.sadly.brings up some painful memories.but hell.it's still a great song

thursday haha.wednesday was crazy.i mean crazy.was up doing some work and attempting to study LAN.was also watching the Australian Open Quarter-Finals.was one hell of a long match.4hrs4min i think it was.so anyhow.was talking to shank and ben online.somehow the idea came up to go pubbing.so i said "how about now?".and we met up at 10.15pm at borders.HAHA! went to Ballymoons for a drink before heading to Chatterbox for some food..we kinda lamed around town till 3am before coming back to my place to watch Chelsea v Man Utd (i shall not comment on that game because it was a stupid goal that helped Chelsea win).those 2 fellas slept on the sofa while "watching"

DAMN PISSED AND IRRITATED some people should learn to frigging eat with their mouths closed.some people should learn to take up more responsibilities when undertaking projects.some people need to know how to really shut the hell up.some people should frigging kill themselves cos their very existence is a waste of the world's resources.some people should frigging stop being a goddamn faggot and just get on with life instead of being gay

monday afternoon ok.my previous post was written at a time i was feeling quite pissed with a few people.but i shan't bother about it.what's done is done.i don't want to have to try to right the wrongs (if any) and please other people.but apologies to adel and those who may have felt that what i said was unjustified or felt wronged by it..

anyhows..OH 2005 is over and done! eGarage registration surpassed the targeted 1400+.iTechOne went pretty well.floorball was.well.slightly disappointing.but overall i think it was pretty good
the "sights" were pretty good on a few occassions (shaun would know what i mean).managed to go out with one of the MGS girls that came to eGarage.haha! anyway.spent alot of time laming around with the trio of treeman shanky and ben outside eGarage at the beanbags that were meant for course counselling
E-Cup was total thrashy.apart from T13's "Wax Works".nothing else was spectacular or interesting.and on the last day.there was conflict with the overall in-charge.but to be fair.the rules weren't clearly stated.so maybe that was the biggest flaw of the whole thing.but i still feel that given the situation.he shouldn't have done what he did.he didn't know how to handle the situation.and at the prize giving ceremony.the words that he wrote on the envelope (to simulate the prize money) was a real slap in the face for T13.what a dumbass person he is
now.floorball.it gets more and more interesting and perhaps even political everyday.was talking to yazid on sunday.we came up with alot of potential problems and the biggest one being the team selection for ivp this year.we have no idea how to justify leaving some people out of the team because the rules state that we can only register 23 players.an given the talent pool we have in NP.competition is tough and even i at this point.being seriously out of form.find it difficult to justify MY OWN position within the team.
sometimes being in a position of authority can stink.having to make difficult decisions that will cause people to lose respect for you.yet those decisions have to made not by choice but because of the situation at hand.NPFB president? maybe. NPFB captain? we'll see.but captainship should go to yazid.that much i'm willing to say.but for now.i'm contented being NPFB secretary...for now

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apologies to adel and all who might feel offended
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saturday morning i don't see the big deal of people being in two very different societies/clubs at once.you see.i'm in eGarage and ICT Society.and first things first.i was an eGarage member before i even joined ICTS.but anyways.i know there're people who are pretty much unhappy with me being more active in eGarage than ICTS.but hey.let's me honest shall we? i dont like the way ICTS organize events.well.at least the execution bit stinks.sometimes i (as well as others) get the impression they're organizing events for two purposes: 1.) to compete directly with eGarage 2.) to please themselves maybe?
well.i mean no offense (or do i?) but i feel that being unhappy with me is quite unjustified.there are other guys who're in both and are literally DEAD in both.so now what? are they going to rant and bitch about them? doubt it.are they going to do anything about it? doubt it.so now.why be unhappy with me? question: what ya gonna do about it? kick me out of ICTS? cant do that.they'll be contradicting themselves (well.they said on the very first day that ALL IT/MMC/MBC students are members of ICTS)

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so much for being unhappy with a few people..
i feel i'm getting quite distant from a couple of people.namely sangar.brian.shaun and ben maybe? i dunno.sometimes it just feels funny.well.funny isnt the right word.but sometimes it feels as if i'm not talking to them as much as i used to.as if we're no longer sharing as much jokes as we did and well.it all seems so weird.so much for being "brothers".sigh..oh well.life goes on.hope things get better..


rantings and blabberings..

wednesday morning match went pretty well.but should have been better.NP 2 FC Squirrels 6.scored the opener as well as tallying an assist for alex's goal.NP played an almost full squad (minus the Squirrels guys) while Squirrels played with 13 players.was great to have melvin back in the team as well as tim playing for us today.so here's the stats for me today:

goals - 1
assist - 1
shots saved - 3
shots blocked - 1
shots hitting the post - 5

there.my shooting sucks.1 goal out of 10 tries.thats a 10% conversion rate.damnit! anyhows.i think playing with the alex-kenneth partnership up front is pretty cool.i mean we do have our disputes (of me being too far up or kenneth being too far down) and how our line had so many chances but only converted 2 of them.but oh well.it's been a while since the Squirrels lines have played together.we can only get better as we play more together now right?

open house is just a few hours away.am waiting for mr sreeram to send me the "script" for the emcee-ing for iTechOne competitions.i hate to do formal emcee-ing.i'm not really the serious kind of emcee/host.i prefer a lightened mood.making people laugh and really just having fun while doing what i'm doing.but anyway.will make do and see how it goes :)

tuesday morning the start of a very busy week.been going well so far.got my part of the wireless jam codes done.still cant figure how to display the menu screen though.will work on that soon.if i find the time.congrats to sangar for getting the OAA (that's outstanding academic award).congrats in advanced to julian too.he's commissioning as an officer on the 23rd of this month
so.EBF test went pretty well.though i'm quite sure i threw away 10 to 30 marks.didnt really study for it.so it's kinda expected.heh! =D

saturday morning meetings meetings and more meetings.that's what this whole day is gonna be like
agenda for the day:

0830 do wireless jam while waiting
0930 ict meeting for open house
1300 np meeting for open house
1400 linux day meeting at rp
1900 secondary school class gathering OR liverpool vs manchester united @ muddy murphys

anyhows.class was cancelled on friday.so basically went to school for noughts.woke up at 12.cooked myself lunch while talking to derline.left at 1.30..and then weixiong called at 2.30 while i was still in the bus.so called shank and spread the word that class was cancelled.got to school.ate 6 tutu-kueh.hah! went to egarage and played xbox before leaving for town with shaun to get a haircut and sourcing for j2me books..realised i didnt have the $100+ i thought i had when i wanted to pay for a book.hah!

friday morning finally i feel the stress level go down.SA assignment's cleared.though it's not really right to say that the presentation went well.cos it didnt.i know i did well.but i'm more worried about 2 members in my group.they literally got torn to shreds by my tutor.completed my EBF assignment 2 yesterday morning at 4am.so was pretty stoned when i went to school.decided to give floorball training a miss too.ended up in eGarage playing MechAssault with fengnan before helping shihui with her BIS assignment..
came back at around 9.ate my dinner quickly and went on to finish off the india website.glad to say that it's all done now.so i'm left with PM assignment and the planning for NP Floorball open house events as well as the Polympics..
thank goodness today's class is EP and EP only.PQS is online so i'll only have to go to school at 3..
this weekend's all packed again.got robocode training for secondary school kids on saturday before rushing to mrs chang's house for sec sch class gathering before rushing off again to possibly meet ben zak shuren and shank to catch liverpool v manchester united
sunday will be floorball floorball and more floorball till evening when i'll be going to catch singapore v indonesia with a couple of my poly mates..hope it won't rain and the game would be as good as the singapore v myanmar one..with of course singapore winning :)

wednesday morning ahh..the stresses of life.assignments galore and open house is round the corner.lots of work to do and lots of things to prepare for.the india post expedition team is having problems because of the content and we're at least 3 days late
anyway.floorball on tuesday was ok.had a match with SMU.had 1 assist and should have scored 1 goal but i missed a total seater.skied the shot.damnit

monday morning sunday was great.watched singapore vs myanmar at the national stadium with vasan and shaun.despite the rain pouring throughout the day.the match proved to be worth the wait in the rain as well as watching it in drizzle and light rain

i must say.the crowd turnout for singapore was better than i expected.40000 in total.thats 2/3 the capacity of the stadium.i guess it would have been better had the weather been good

mynamar supporters.well.bunch of fuckers.when singapore scored at the end of the 2nd half of normal time.they started a fight.when singapore scored in extra time to make it 2-2.there was a fight.then again.everytime singapore scored.there was a fight

tempers flared not only among the spectators but on the field as well.only when i watched the replay on tv just now.i realised why myanmar ended the match with 8 men.1 had 2 yellows (which make a red).1 got involved in a scuffle and the last guy got a red for kicking mud at the ref.and oh.the reserve goalie got a red card as well for throwing a water bottle at subramani towards the end of the 2nd half of extra time

so statistics for today:

Singapore Myanmar
Goals 4 2
Fights Started 0 4
Yellow Cards 2 4
Red Cards 0 3+1