idiot's guide to rotting at home

Saturday, May 29, 2010

the tournament that never was..

saturday morning the week in wollongong was one that brought out the best and worse sides of me. i have never lost my temper on court until last week. it's one thing to play to win, another to play to enjoy. it's nice to go out there with a minimalistic mindset of wanting to enjoy a game. but tell me, what joy is there in losing a game 10-1 and 11-1? what ever happened to personal pride?

secondly, i get very annoyed when people who do not know how to play the game, try to talk as if they know every nuance of it. by which i mean, people who try to dictate tactics, people can't play yet want to pretend they can. it pisses me off.

i was also fcuking pissed with two particular referees who were downright biased. i get fouled five times consecutively down the boards, shielding the ball from a defender. i nudge my way out and i get called for a foul. what the hell? i get slashed five times, it's not a foul. i nudge the opponent out of my way and i get called for a foul? and then of course there were all the fouls that never was, the body checks that were to be straight 2- or 5-minute penalties but were not called by the referee(s). i hate unprofessional referees, especially those who don't know the rules properly.

on the upside, i played some of my better floorball here in australia. four man-of-the-match awards and in the all-star team. not the berbatov-esq style of play i wanted to but oh well. i only hope the preparations for the next tournament are better, with an improvement in technical and tactical training. in all honesty, i think i'm hoping against hope.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

escapism.

tuesday morning i don't know why do i even bother.

on a side not, i think people who use alcohol as a form of escapism deserve to get smacked in the head real hard with a frying pan.

and seriously, sometimes going with the heart is the "right" thing to do as going with the head. i should know better wouldn't i? but then again, who knows?

Sunday, May 16, 2010

and on that bombshell...

sunday afternoon i'm not sure if i hate you. i'm not sure who you are anymore. i'm not sure what is going to happen. the only thing i'm sure is this: you won't be forgiven anytime soon. and by extension, maybe i lost 2 people - a girlfriend and a friend. i'm not sure i like to have people who make use of others as a friend. much less, a girlfriend.

thanks for fucking up my life.