friday day was alright.was in school for abit to do the IS crap.before heading home to collect some stuff.then went to novena to collect some goodie bag before heading to yio chu kang to meet clare.went to her place before we took a train down to orchard.had ljs for lunch before we bought tickets for i,robot (yeah yeah.i know i've watched it already.but she hasn't ok?) ..went to kill time at taka wisma and starbucks.so anyhows.while we were at starbucks all the till just before the movie started.she was having an argument of sorts with her bf (whom i must add.is in NS and being a pain the ass to her and to the armed forces) could tell she was about to cry but was holding it back.so i just kept quiet before attemptin to cheer her up.man oh man.just wished i could have done more for her (i sense owen jolene chris and aisa sayin something)
i hate guys who dont treat their girls right.i hate them to the very core.i'm just so full of hatred now.that asswipe.

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if i am another waste of everything you dream of.i will let you down
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“The worst solitude is to be destitute of sincere friendship” (Francis Bacon)

wednesday i take back some of the things i said in the previous post.i'm not 70-80% anti-t15 most of the time.i dont hate them.i just get easily irritated by them.its the little things that they do over a long period of time that really takes me to the brink of snapping..at the same time.i feel sorely misunderstood.went for the 2nd interview for the icts thing.lets just say i wont be making main comm.but i'll give it a shot anyway.not that i'm really optimistic.anyhows.back to me being misunderstood.was told i like to be by myself alot.in a way yeah.i do.but its always because i find myself facing a big (20 over in this case) group that has known one another for a year plus or know each other through the orientation camp or orientation activities.i mean.yeah.i wouldnt mind joining in the group to talk crap and stuff.but fact is.i feel really uncomfortable joining a clique/group that has been around for quite a while.i know some of them.but that doesnt mean they know me right? -shrugs- bottom line.i feel very out of place within the icts community.somehow me running for main comm just doesnt seem right..

vindicated yet i'm misunderstood..

tuesday morning i'm positively anti-t15.at least for 70-80% of the time.i cant stand the snobbish/arrogant look on the face of some of the girls when they walk into class every morning.i just feel like walking over and giving them a bloody slap across the face and then spitting at them.i dont give a damn that they hate my guts.well who gives a damn about anyone anymore anyway? the distinct line of pure hate and dislike is about to be crossed.and i'm definitely not feeling the latter.more the former than anything else.funnily enough.the guys are still alright.i dont talk to them much but thats only because i'm normally busy with stuff or with shank's class
so anyhows.had DB lecture today.had problems writing/typing because of my wrist.went to the sports hall after that to accompany t13 guys for their sports day of sorts.they played badminton and table tennis..
met shank to discuss the IS project.came up with the basic design and a few slogans which were pretty lame ("whose food are these anyway?" with a picture of a crow/rat/whatever looking at a table full of leftovers)
went for ICTS briefing.looks like i've gotta prepare stuff for the campaigning.not that i'm real keen on having my face posted up
training was horrible.and i mean HORRIBLE.i was totally unprepared to handle taking charge of training.so got angsty and shouted abit (which is kinda the norm given the attitude some of the players have).but realised after talking to zhiwei weiliang filbert and desmond.control is about respect and respect in turn leads to control.so yeah.will have to work on gaining and/or regaining the respect of my fellow year 2s.who gives a shit if i'm secretary of NP Floorball but no one respects me? so yeah.that's one of my main aims this semester.gain respect

sunday

Division 2 Semi-Final 1:

FC Squirrels 2 Tazsilian Piranha 2 [Tazsilian win on penalties 4-3]

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match was a hard fought one.ran like hell.went 1-0 up.conceded 2 to go 1-2 down before haqeem pulled it back to 2-2 with 2 min to spare.went to penalties.told lim that i wanted to take one.and take one i did.was the 4th taker.by which we only had 1 miss.silenced the keeper and alot of others when i did a drag shot to the right corner.bloody 'keeper was just too damn noisy.kept taunting me and asking me to get on with it.so scored i did.told him to shush.felt great to finally score.so was up to the 5th taker to win it for us.but he missed so it went to sudden death penalties.'qeem missed the 6th penalty and yazid failed to save the tazsilian one.so yeah.we're out.but it was a great game.alot of sitting back and counter-attacking.match came at a price.stuart got a sprained ankle and i busted my wrist.hurts as hell now.considering seeing a physio tmr during my one hell of a long break before i go for my individual interview thing for ICTS.

i feel vindicated..
who ever doubted has been silenced..

sunday morning sleep is a long way off.keep thinking how i'm gonna get my name on the scoresheet later today.i refuse to lose this game.i want a win and i'm gonna bang people over the boards if i have to.so here's my gameplan for the day: run the defense ragged like i did in the all the games i've played in ('cept the salibandy one; otherwise known as being an old-fashioned centre-forward)

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alrite.so saturday was a thrashy day.didnt go for my driving because it was cancelled.so slept in till around 12.woke up to watch apollo 13 on cable.its like the what? 100th time they're showing it or something now.dad came back.took a shower before we headed off to pick up mum and had dinner at samy's curry.went to borders after that to wait for tim before heading to sim lim.was quite tempted to get a couple of books.but i'm on a budget after some heavy spending yesterday (total bill: $100+) yikes.so yeah.went to sim lim.almost bought a new mouse for myself.figured i didnt really need it so i left it as that.met up with giles outside song brothers before we met up with victor.went to the food court for 'bak chor mee'.which i only found out today.means minced pork noodles.so yes.my dialect stinks.shoot me.went to play cs and wc3.its amazing how my 2 heroes.12 riflemen and 20 odd gyrfalcon-something can actually survive the entire game counting i dont know how to play wc3.hah!

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saturday morning school's crap.utter rubbish.Exploring Contemporary Issues is not living up to what i was told.it's not living up to what the module description said.it's definitely not giving me the challenge i sought.either way.i'm still aiming for the AD

watched I, Robot at cine after school.met up with shaun and julian.had dinner at fish & co before we caught the show.summary: bad robot turns out to be good.robot vs human fight in the middle of the show will remind you of terminator.either way.still a real good show.will smith's quip remarks are just.well.the usual will smith remarks (aka. funny and the usual one-liners)

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this sunday @ Tampines Sports Hall

division 2 semi-final 1:

FC Squirrles vs Tazsilian Piranha

division 2 semi-final 2:

Millenia Schools Salibandy vs Pasirian Floorball

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shaun- lucks with your fencing.go poke the guy's eyes out man.hahaha

thursday morning first things first.i'm beginning to feel the strain of school and church work all put together..church in particular.is giving me problems.

i'm having doubts about the upcoming sports day thing that we're suposed to have next month but i'm just not up to it.i dont feel like doing it.i REGRET even taking up the job to help plan for it.its not right for desiree and pyc in general..

life as it is right now.its great.but i just want to spend more time fulfilling the dreams and ambitions that i have whilst in NP..cca-wise i'm doing more than fine.in fact.i'm doin very well.was appointed into the main committee of NP Floorball taking up the post of secretary.so thats all well and good.and being a senior buddy.cant get anymore fulfilling than teaching other students now can it? i never thought that i'd be a senior buddy last year but here i am.in-charge of 1W05.a mobile computing class no doubt.but i have faith in my abilities.i'm about to join ICT Society.hopefully as a main comm. member.but it doesnt really matter now if i'm in main comm or not because i've already got my floorball..

relationships u say? hah.bet u guys have been havin fun readin how my many 'exploits' have turned out since i first came to NP.geraldine.wanyi.sarah.hah.clare u ask? well.thats all in the past too.first met her in sec 2 or 3.and that's that.we're just old friends-if old's even the word to use-catching up with each other and stuff..but finally in the end when all's said and done.their really two or three people (girls for now yar?) that i can really fall back on: anne and marilyn.maybe they've had a hand in shaping my life maybe not.but anne.yeah definitely.marilyn.i dont know.but bgr aside.i figure i'm having good rapport with most of the people i know.so yeap..

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i did a real damn LONG entry last night but blogger decided to hang so i'm doing a 2nd entry which is this.and its definitely not as long as the original
am just too tired this days.mentally drained as well as physically tired.yesterday's match was a very classic example of fatigue playing a big factor in the players.even then.we had no reasons to lose to Merahans 11-5.i scored one goal.but that's pointless given the scoreline when i scored.we were already 11-4 down with 10 or 15 seconds to go before my one-time volley went in.i'm just keeping my fingers crossed that we're up to it on sunday.i'm damn keen on winning and going to next week's finals.i want a medal..

totally drained..

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am DAMN sick now.on medical leave for the next two days.coughin my lungs out.head's throbbing badly and i havent a clue what's exactly wrong in my body =\

thursday day was alright.feeling feverish and having a sore throat.think its cos of yesterday.walked in the bloody rain to get home cos i was too tired to sit around to wait for it to subside.did 2.4 today.together with 100 push-ups and sit-ups.man.body'll definitely ache tomorrow morning.but hey.no pain no gain. =gonna sleep now.need to be fit for the semis next sat.

activities for coming weekend & next week
saturday - Club Alliance AGM @ Pasir Ris Coasta Sands
sunday - Antioch Team outing
sometime during the week - ICTS interview for main comm. selection
saturday - floorball division 2 semi-finals

SFL 2004 Men's Division 2 News


Urgent!!

Changes have been made to Singapore Floorball League 2004 men's division 2 schedule.

17th July, Sat 2pm Pasirian Floorball v Tazsilian Piranha
4pm Nighthawks v Team ITE

25th July, Sun 4pm Semi Finals 1
6pm Semi Finals 2

31st July, Sat 4pm Finals and Prize Presentation (1st and 2nd Placing)

All games will be played in TSH not NTU.



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ok..thanks for telling -rolls eyes-

sunday just got back from dinner with marilyn.haha.darling of a girl's still her same old crazy self. :D
anyhows.match was great.again.first period was rubbish.we went 1-0 down.1-1.1-2 then fought back to 2-2.score stayed that way for rest of the match.so we're through to the semi-finals to be played on the 17th of july.so stats are as follows:

Played: 5 Win: 3 Draw: 2 Lose: 0 Goals For: 22 Goals Against: 7 Goal Differential: +15

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training as usual tmr.hoho.die..

thursday am starting to feel nostalgic.people whom i've met in the past that are now gone.people who are close are now not around physically (as in their overseas).and even when they're around.we hardly talk.seems like everytime i get close to someone again.something happens and then it all falls apart.don't think i ever recovered from may's incident whilst in england.but i guess it's all in the past and reflecting upon it won't do much good
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today just dragged on and on endlessly.breezed through NF practical but that's just about it.everything went downhill from there.one of my junior buddies (perhaps a few of them) think i'm showing off (simply because i cant configure his laptop? wtf?).well i guess to a certain extent he's/their right.i'm becoming sick and tired of doing things for people at MY expense and getting nothing in return.and yeah.i've heard more than enough of "you'll be paid with the riches in heaven"
ECID class wasnt any better.got pissed off because i had to do most of the practical work by myself.i fear i'm becoming to reliant on myself.i'm beginning to worry about the ECID assignment that was given out today.just hope my group (whoever i'll be with) will do good clean work and not piss around
floorball orientation was good.like i said.nostalgia.wanyi.man.so close yet so far.but that's all over now.some feelings linger on but mostly their dead i think.couple of guys who're joining already know how to play.so i guess i have ample reason to worry about my starting place in the ivp team.just have to keep pushing myself and i'm sure i'll get there.funnily enough.i'll be helping out with the girls training.so trainings will be mondays wednesdays and thursdays.oh well.for love of the game yar?

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wednesday evening am running a fever.can feel it in my bones.blah
-frowns- just ended OOP class.woah.4 hours intensive of database and java.killer

tuesday morning didnt get to play on sunday but what the heck.we still won 12-0.could have met marilyn for lunch/dinner but that silly girl prefered to starve at home after asking me out to eat (like what's up with that?!).got home.showered changed and packed my stuff before heading out for dinner with my family.headed to lido after that to meet tim handy and 2 other guys.plan was for us to watch the euro finals together at a pub but handy and the other 2 left before the match started.so caught the match at something-murphy's irish pub.atmosphere was fantastic.match was pretty alright.got my prediction spot on (again!)

am feeling very exhausted from a combination of not sleeping one night and floorball training.thank God that class is at 10am later.so it'll give me a lil' bit more time to catch up on sleep

i'm trying.but i doubt you know..

saturday morning talking to sean-brud and geraldine now.kinda slow tonight.so had my first Exploring Contemporary Issues lesson on friday.let's just say that even though a certain someone got top in the course.his attitude is downright fucked up for a top student.conclusion: i'll frigging kick his ass when it comes to this module as well as NF..
so anyhows.gonna meet tim.cedrick.fahmi to head down to city plaza to check out salming sticks.might buy one if its less than $80.which means sacrificing my Crumpler bag..will head on down to town to meet chris owen and the usual bunch to catch spidey 2 before heading to church for meeting in the evening..so there goes saturday in a flash..
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realised yesterday in the cab how often i've been talkin to marilyn lately: as good as nothing :realised on thursday during training how often i've been talking to sarah since the last incident: none.zilch.zero
realised just a few minutes ago how often i've been talking to geraldine since french class was over: quite a fair bit
so you'd figured by now that i've realised 3 things in the past 2 days eh?
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met my junior buddy class on thursday to get them their textbooks.man.you guys should have seen how the 20-odd people in the queue behind us reacted when the bookshop lady looked at us in awe/shock when the final price came to $1159+ ..WOAH.the people behind us were like "WAH LAU EH!"
met geraldine in school on thursday.boy has she changed alot since last year.more class and style.. -impressed and interested- hah!
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found out from widya just now.i might not be suspended from sunday's game even though i did get a red card.so she'll be checkin for me if it's a match penalty 1 or 2 (1 means i can play).if its MP2.means i wont get to play against st gabs (aka have a hand in killing my secondary school).even if i'm allowed to play.hope i'm not benched.it'll be the same as being suspended :ahh..marilyn just came online.. sigh.

if i am...